today was the most heartbreaking day i've had ever experience...
i don't know why but even though i got through the choice i wanted, there's still something in me feels really unsure about this...i am still trying to find the reason for my moodiness right now...

even the feeling of happiness was short-lived after i've answered a call.
the caller seems to have had a rough day today...
not being able to make her feel better , i asked my friends to try to cheer her up even a little...
it seems that even though she is feeling kinda better, i am still feeling worried on whether will she be able to cope with this situation...
after dealing with that, my other friend told me that , she really feel that she cannot tahan(stand) her mother's nagging...
i don't even know what to do and simply replied ,"don't be like that lar" which i think doesn't help her at all larh...
which is why i don't like it when my friends are having problems, cause when they are sad/disappointed or whatever, i'm feeling the same thing...

i'm actually wearing a mask, a facade, today...people around may feel that i'm feeling fine but i'm not... seriously, i'm not...
cause i am feeling inferior right now...it just came out unexpectedly...
this is so making me stressed out...
i hope i will be feeling better tomorrow...
i hate this kind of feeling... it sucks to the core

sometimes i just wished that i have no emotions at all...

to the point that i can't take it anymore...